Today is Nov 8th, I just got through washing clothes. For those who do not know, when you are in jail, you can either send your whites off to be washed by the jail laundry or wash your things by hand. I prefer to wash by hand. I never thought I would be washing my underwear by hand, but it’s actually pretty relaxing to just get lost in daydreams while scrubbing away, thinking of every thing I miss so much. Some-time, I even sing one of my favorite tunes to myself while I scrub.

To wash my clothes, I crush up one of the bars of soap that the jail supplies. I add a small tube of toothpaste that is also supplied by the jail, and a little shampoo so it will suds nicely. The toothpaste is the secret to getting the clothes extra white. I add all these items together and whip them up until the soap is dissolved. It’s amazing how white my washing comes out this way, without using any bleach!

Anyway, this last Friday I received my papers telling me I am ready to go to TDCJ. When I received the document stating my readiness a very real feeling set in. The feeling that I AM GOING TO PRISON.
The truth is, I am scared. Not for my well being but for the unknown. This is a new, unknown experience for me, and new experiences have always made me anxious. I just really want to get there and get the initial introduction to prison life over with and behind me.

I won’t be able to write anyone for a coupe of weeks while I am going through the intake process, but I want you to know I will be thinking of you all.  I would like to say I love every one of you that has taken the time to read my blog and support me. Don’t worry about me, I will be OK. I can hold my own.

I want to add a special hello to Kasey, I miss you every single day. You are beautiful, in every way, shape and form, inside and out. Also, hello to my mom and to my sister, I love y’all. And, thanks to those that help me with this blog, it means a lot to me and is helping me feel connected to all the people I care about.

Peace ~ Magnum

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  1. Vin says:

    So do these inmates have the ability to blog somewhere in the jail or do they send out a letter and someone types it up? Sounds like a stupid question but I’m only curious.

    • Texas Magnum says:

      Hey Vin, somewhere on this site is the answer to that, not sure where, though. So I will just tell you. I did not have computer or internet access. I wrote letters, pen and paper, and those letters had a few pages that were my blog posts. I sent them to a family member and they received them then typed them and posted them here for me. I guess these days there are some prisons that allow computer time to write letters but it’s not real internet access, and I think that is only in “nicer” prisons. Maybe federal? I know TDC didn’t have it when I was there at all and I doubt they do now. Writing down my thoughts while I went through county jail and sentencing and then prison was a lot of help to me. Now that I am out I keep it up mostly because I saw that family of those in prison have questions and I can provide some answers and information. And now, there are a few other folks that have followed the site for a long time while they had a family member incarcerated and now they help with answers to questions too. Hope this answers your question. Peace out ~ Magnum

      • Anja Eggens says:

        Hi Texas Magnum,
        It was nice to read your story. I have a penpal in a Texas prison for about 27 years now and I visited him a few times. Now I am writing a book about our story. Maybe you can help me with some practical things :-).

  2. PEZ says:

    I am so amazed with your writing – – but, I should not be surprised. You are an incredibly unique guy.

    The waiting game is almost over. You can move forward in your journey. I talked to your mom today via IM, and I will write you once you get settled and are able to receive letters.

    Here is a quote that came through my email the other day: “Serenity is not freedom from the storm, but peace during a storm.” -Anonymous

    Take Care!

  3. yoursista says:

    Hey baby brother. I miss you very much and have enjoyed your blog. It’s pretty cool to know your doing OK. I was thinking about the special soap mixture you make and got me thinking about when I was in the army. It’s absolutely amazing how no matter what circumstances we are in life, how we find simple pleasures. In the army use to really like polishing my shoes… It made the time pass and gave me time to think. I think about you every day and I love ya…
    Take care xo