Hello all, I have been very lax in keeping up with the blog. A whole lot of real life got in the way. Just let me take a minute to brag. I am married to the most awesome woman in the world. We got married on 9/11. A funny date for a marriage but that was the same day I had parole, and I had to consolidate everything so I didn’t miss much work, lol. The way I look at it, that is a good and happy thing that occurred on a day remembered for something unhappy and bad. Maybe over time, when enough babies are born on that day, and people get married on that day, and other happy events, we won’t only remember it as bad. So I did my part.

And, guess what — we just had a baby! Yep, I am a father to a big healthy son. He is so cool. Lays there and sleeps a lot now, but he’s GOING to do great things in this world. And if I have anything to do with it, going to TDC won’t be on his list. Nope, none of that for my son. I hope I can be a good father and good husband. I am trying my best. I will admit, it’s harder some days than others. And having a family changes everything. Before if I screwed up I was screwing up myself. Now a lot of other people are going to get affected by it. I got to keep it together.
I am working hard pretty much every day. Construction so bad weather means no work. And I am broke most of the time, lol. But hey, I have a little place of our own, and we get by.

Hope you all are hanging in there. If you are reading this because you have a loved on incarcerated somewhere, don’t ever give up on them. Everybody deserves hope. Some of us have pushed things too far over and over and maybe you feel things will never change. I am proof that things do change. I am not saying I have it all figured out, I don’t for sure. And believe me, I know I got a ways to go. But look how far I have come. Less than two years ago I was locked up for the 4th year in a row during the holidays, between rehabs and prison. Now I am a married man and a father, holding a full time job, and stressing about paying the light bill rather than stressing about where my next high was coming from.

Oh and by the way, for anyone looking for some kinship and advise regarding the incarcerated, I strongly suggest www.prisontalk.com. It’s a very strong forum with lots of good information. For anyone wanting to help or learn more about helping the incarcerated, a great organization is The Human Kindness Foundation. It was founded by Bo and Sita Lozoff. Bo wrote “We’re all Doing Time”, probably one of the most widely read books by inmates ever, and one that brought me great hope and a better understanding of myself and the world. Check it out, you don’t need to be in prison to get a lot out of it. You can buy it on the Human Kindness site at http://humankindness.bigcartel.com/product/we-re-all-doing-time. They send this book for free to inmates all over the world. If you buy a book on their site, it helps their efforts.

I am hoping for all of you out there that you pass the holidays safe and sound with your family and friends. If you have someone incarcerated, keep the faith. Keep the candle burning. Peace out y’all. I will try to be more regular on here, but I do love you all.

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  1. Mercedeeze says:

    Hi Texas Magnum,
    I really enjoyed reading your post and have to say congrats on the birth of your child and the marriage to your wife. You should be proud of yourself for the strides you have taken to change from the person you were to the person you are. I can only hope that my brother can say the same. He was incarcerated in a Texas prison several years ago when I was finally able to find him. I stopped calling the prison to check on him for a few months and when I called again, he had been released without parole. It was at this time that I lost track of him. I still wonder to this day if he is still alive or not. The last thing heard from him by any of the family was when he told his mom he has aids. I do not know for sure if that was true or not and would love to find him someday to find out. I find myself searching the obits once in a while, just looking to see if I can find him. Please do not ever put your family through this kind of misery, no matter what you have done in the past, they still care about you and always will. Keep your head held high and God bless you and your family.

    • Texas Magnum says:

      Hi Mercedeeze, thank you for the note and your kind words. I am enjoying life a whole lot more these days, that is for sure. I am sorry to hear your family has lost track of your brother, that is very tough. Sometimes a person wants to stop disappointing those he cares for and who care for them, and just choose to step away. I know what you mean, disappearing is not the answer and it is painful for y’all, but I do understand it. I am sure he thinks about y’all a lot and I hope that he comes back into your lives someday. Meanwhile, keep your head up and keep him in your prayers. Peace.

  2. fatima says:

    Hi Texas Magnum, first I want to congratulate you on your baby boy and wife, I’m glad that you’ve kept your head up even when you were going through a difficult time in your life. I honestly don’t know how my internet surfing brought me to your blog being that I don’t have a loved one incarcerated, but I must say I absolutely love it. It’s clearly that you were meant to go through all that trouble, so that you could learn to value life but also help others with similar problems. You sure seem like a good man with a big heart so I don’t doubt you’ll be a great father and husband 🙂 take good care of your fam, I look forward to reading more from you. Thank you for your time God bless !

    • Texas Magnum says:

      Hi Fatima, thank you for writing! I appreciate hearing from people like yourself, I like your angle of “why” I went through what I did. I don’t know, might just be I am a dumbass that needed to learn the hard way or a little of both, but anyway, today things are good. I will keep y’all posted on my little guy and beautiful wife. Life is good! Peace to you.